hrmmm

I often think about why I keep this blog. Of course, it started as a way to document my trip to england, but what has it become? I'd like to think that it's just a way to remind me, years from now, what was going on in my mind at this time. But is it? well, only partly, i guess. I mean, first, i don't really share all that's going on in my mind. Sure, I'm fairly honest... but I'm also afraid to write some things because I know that people I know read it and I don't want to embarass myself too too much. But also, I there are definitely just parts of my psyche that I don't want others to know. what am i writing here? I don't really know. I spend a lot of time blogging about girls, but perhaps that's because it's a "safe" blog topic. and it's on my mind. But it's hardly all that's going on. Surely the bar and thinking of moving and trying to write cover letters are more important and take up more of my thoughts. Do the reason girls come up so often here is that I blog before going to bed and always feel a little extra lonely at night? Perhaps. I am lonley, but its not crippling. I love my friends, and have recently been reminded that I have some truely great friends--and a lot of really great acquaintances. But its times like when I'm lonely on a saturday night that I wish for mre.

I'm going to be spending sometime condo sitting for Melissa Ullmo. More time alone, I suppose... but this alone I think is good. I actually like being alone, I just wish I coudl choose when I was alone or not.