I just noticed something...huh?; or, I want someone to describe me as strong enough to pull the wings off a gundar

I just noticed something, and its worthy of a quick blog post. In the first trilogy, Vader and the Emperor are calm almost all the time. You can tell they hate, but they are in control. Perhaps that is what makes them so powerful...that they can control their hatred so effectively. But, I was thinking about this as connected with the new trilogy, and this is yet another time Lucas seems to have fucked up.... In EPs 1-3, the Sith are clearly angrey. The only one who shows real control is Dooku... Sure, Maul is pretty calm in his few scenes, but he is clearly pissed off (I think he sprouted those horns by sheer will). But, think of EP3... Anakin is fucking livid.... The Palpy is a nut-bar... But Dooku didn't hate... He used his intense feelings to channel his power. Now, being the Star Wars apologist that I am, I can explain this...In the years between Ep3 and 4, Vader and Palpatine learned better about the Dark Side how to use their powers.... But I think this is a shitty excuse for Lucas fucking up yet again. One more time he shows how he misunderstands his own universe....It makes sense for Anakin to be how he was... It makes sense for him to have uncontrollable rage..... that is how Obi Wan was able to beat him (twice, I think). But Palpy doesn't make sense... He shouldn't have been purely crazy in teh final movie... He should have been more in control. More like Vader. More like He wa in the EP1 and 2 where he clearly shows that he's got his shit down... I dunnooooo... I'm making more out of it than needs to be.

So, other than that... things here have been very hard.... but its basically the same old same old. GRE in 1 week.. .grad apps being neglected...keep thinking that this girl may be into me, but not sure... so I dont do anything about it because I'm a sissy... and because I'd much rather just be a friend than potentially fuck things up.... sorta cleaned my apartment... dying to watch blade runner... need more free time... almost murdered a prof here.... and a partrage in a pair tree.

Maxwell's silver hammer

Andrew once pointed out a phenomenon about himself that applies with equal force to me. (yet another thing, i suppose). We both tend to hate the people who are into the same things that we are into. There are many such examples, but the one that comes to mind today is Columbus. As I've recently remarked, I have grown a fondness for Columbus that I never had during my first stint here. But today (and last night) I came to the realization that Columbus, like WoW, cycling, and Star Wars, is yet another instance where I don't like the people who also like Columbus. And who are these people???? Who is the achetypical Columbus-er? Why, of course, it is the Buckeye undergrad. Today was like move in day or something on campus and the influx of stupidity, testosterone, and walking proofs that Darwin was totally fucking wrong with his whole natural selection/evolution thing reminded me of why I gave this place the finger as I left the first time. It is no secret that I come to Stauf's at least partially to escape from law school and law students, 90% of whom get up my nose like a wire toilet brush, but it is almost impossible to completly run away from the buckeyes. They are everywhere. Everywhere. But the worst part is that even after the graduate, grow up, get jobs, procreate, etc. they are still buckeyes undergrads. It kinda amazes me, but the same mentalities that piss me off in today's undergrads are aparent in those of yesteryear.
This all came to a head today because I just had to fight through the mob scene that was le target. I prayed for a fire. and a riot. and mass hysteria. Instead, I almost got killed WHILE DRIVING in the parking lot by a giant fucking excursion who decided that stopping was too inconvient when all that was blocking her was a tiny yellow spec (me in my mini). I thank christ i was riding my bike or surely she would have thought that she had the right of way (which she fucking didnt!)

Ugh.....

As I often am, I'm a bit melancholy today.... Weekends are always especially bad for me. This one made me a bit sad because of the family reunion. Too many old relatives... too much fear that I could never see them again. Grandpa worries me. I know that he's old, but I can't accept it.

I have this seminar that meets for the first time this week, and truth be told, Im terrified. I'm so damn busy right now, i don't know how I'll handle it.

Ugh...... alright. back to patents. Oh. GO BROWNS!!!! (I may not get the chance to say that again this year)

shit

I just went to see The 11th Hour and mid-way thru the movie I started to cry a little. I'm such a fucking sissy. But you know why I started crying? Because we are all going to fucking die. And because people don't care. Do you think that the planet is just going to keep killing off people (like Katrina) until there are too few people to fuck up the environment any more? Maybe. On a happier note, the movie showed Oberlin and interviewed a prof. from there. that was pretty cool. Oh well, we're all dead, may as well drink my cares away.