still not ready

I'm still not ready to really write anything about it, but i'll say that today was way harder than I expected. I sort of thought after the past few days "ok, i've got the hang of this now." but i was totally wrong. It was brutally hard. I hope I didn't embarrass myself too much in front of my columbus friends. It was great for them to come up, but man or man, i was crying the whole time. it was hard. it was great for all those people to care about me, but it was hard. tho, probably better than sitting alone in the dark, like I imagined i wanted to do.