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I love Aimee Mann's voice.

I was reading some old papers of mine from when i was at oberlin. I'm amazed; I used to have original thoughts. Now, my brain feels fuzzy. sure, now is not a great time for clear thought, but it still bothers me that I feel far less creative than i used to be.

things here remain difficult. Today's better than yesterday, but i still find myself dwelling when im left to my own thoughts. Right now, i need to focus on figuring out if i can actually take the bar. god i hope i can. I really dont want to study for teh bar again, but its necessary.

I'm developing a list of things this whole thing has made me resolve. The first, is to be more open about how i feel toward my friends and family. the second is the push on my own life. The earrings, however, will stay. I still have to be me, right? I'll be fine in a firm if they let me do IP, right? who knows. i'm not very good at conforming. scratch that, im very bad at conforming.

Phil apparently passed my resume onto someone who works for Lee Fisher. I seriously doubt anything will work out, but we shall see. He also passed it to chef who "has some people who may be interested" whatever that means. I'm not holding my breath on either. I'm trying to develop a cover letter that just tells the truth: i was going to move, now im not moving because of some stuff, im only looking for experience. hopefully columbus wants me back.

funny...ive wanted to run away for so long, now, no running away. now...staying. and right now, that's the right thign... and right now,i'm ok with it. But why did it have to be because of this?

All y'alls in Ohio--you're stuck with me for a little bit longer.