Birthday, post one

So, as previously mentioned, this birthday was one of the best of my life. And now i'm even in high spirits as I'm bar studying. Now, some thoughts on my birthday and my friends

It started when I arrived in Columbus around 2. Nooree and I got together around 230, and as sign of happiness to come, she brought me a piece of pie. I love pie. And having a piece of birthday pie is pretty excellent in my book. We then briefly talked about going rollerskating, which I really wish we had gotten the chance to do (after the bar, definitely), and eventually ran off to A Propos to see if I could get some internet access. After Chit chatting for a bit, and not finding a roller rink, we went off to Easton, ostensibly to look for jeans, but in reality, I wanted to hang out and wander around and talk. I know I'm boring, Nooree, but I'll think of something more interesting to do next time. :) Eventually, she had to go off with her family. I really wish she had been able to come out, but whatever. I enjoy her company more than I can say... and I understand that there's only so much wandering and talking that normal people like to do. For me, its fun... but for others... probably not so much...

Now, before I go on about my birthday, probably tomorrow, I need to write a bit about Nooree. of course, she reads this ocassionaly, so thsi could get embarssing... but then again, I don't always express myself very well in person, so if she does read this, maybe that's a good thing. And well, I like to document things, so I'll remember this in the future. I'm so glad that we're friends. I remember meeting her either during orientation or in contracts first day... and I remember talking wtih her and missy about the pictures of our class that were hung outside of the library. And I remeber saying about her picture "my god, that's a gorgeous picture" because it was. And I remember wondering if either of these girls would talk to me after that day. People tell me that I'm overly pessimistic about friends. that I nver assume that people like me, and thats just not right. Well, I am overly pessimistic. I dunno why.

And I was happily wrong. I kept talking to Missy and Nooree, through first year, and into second and third. But I still assumed that I would never see much of Nooree after graduating. I just assumed, as is often the case with me, that my life would take a different direction after 3 years, and she'd be a friend lost in time. Yet that hasn't happened. In fact, quite the opposite. Since getting out of school, we've spent several days together, and I've felt closer and closer to her. And I'm extremely happy about that.

I've said in this blog several times that close fiends mean a lot to me. Loosing friends, even just through time, hurts me a great deal. And I try to keep up and I try to keep in contact... but it's hard. and so, it scares me that I'm feling closer to her, because I feel like I'm waiting for the second shoe to drop.... or whatever that saying is. I'm afraid that she'll get bored with me or something and we'll stop spending time together. or that during my bar studying we'll fall out of contact. or something.

And so I'm going to try to go down to columbus next weekend even tho i have bar work to do, because I enjoy spending time with her and because I dont want to lose contact.

But again, I'm scared. Because i'm lonely and she's pretty and nice to me and... i need to stop bfore I embarass myself too much.

Anyway, more about my birthday tomorrow: Suzi and Sean and Erica and Amber and then post birthday with Kevin and Erin (who might be reading now, and that's awesome because I like readers) and then, my newest prized possession.

oh, and i edited the html on a previous post. I like strike through... it had to be changed.