Wednesday, May 20, 2009

hahahah!

"Grown-ups... are a strange breed! Their brains weigh close to three pounds, and that's not three pounds of cheery delight!" -- The Tick

I'm not even sure I can say anything but read that quote. It may as well be my manifesto. :)

I'm pretty tired, but i don't really feel like sleeping yet.... I really just feel like reading, but instead i'm doing a little bit of work. Why? no good reason. I'm a bit concerned about our case, i suppose. but it's not really in my hands... i'm just a helper monkey.

I find it so strange that I spend my days not speaking at all. Today I went until about 2. Tomorrow, I think I'll try to do some work in a coffee shop or something, just so i don't forget how to spend time with other people around. Oh wait, I have to do computer research tomorrow... forget that. Instead, maybe I'll go to the library. At least it will take me out of the house.

This weekend is Blossom Time in Chagrin. I've been trying to convince everyone I speak with to come down for some fun carnival time. No one's biting. Not that I blame them; I wouldn't drive multiple hours to go to some dirty fair. but, that being said, i'll be going for a night or two. really i just like to go and look and maybe ride a few dangerous, rickety rides. I wish I could run in the race, but mu knees wouldn't appreciate it much. Maybe they'd let me ride my bike. ;)

Blossom holds special memories for me. Memories of marching. You see, I was in a marching band in 5th and 6th grade. and we were pretty darn good. So parades in general hold a nostalgic something for me. It's why i make sure to watch Macy's thanksgiving day parade every year. Blossom, in particular, holds something special because I marched in it. I think i've only gotten to watch as an outsider like 2 or 3 times. I don't really miss marching, so much, but I do miss playing with the band. Not that I was particularly good or anything, but there's something awesome about making music. Again, part of my phenomenology is that people are creative beings. we need to do creative things. I think it's good for our brains. I was thinking about this when out to lunch with Nooree, Aimee, and Aimee's sister. Aimee's sister said that she was envious of people who stayed in the same place, and i said that i wish I'd been more places. Well, from my perspective, staying in the same place has narrowed my world view and made me a less dynamic person than i would be if I had more experience traveling and being with different people. Instead, the thing i know is upper-middle, lower upper class north east ohio. Not a bad place to come from, but it has given me limited experiences. I joke about the lack of racial/economic diversity in my life, but its only half a joke. I actively try to broaden my perspective, but I don't feel like I've done very well, and I feel a bit like an outsider looking in. I feel strange that my understanding of so many things comes from reading the news, watching documentaries, and trying to understand.

ok... that's one huge tangent. I should read a bit more for work then off to bed.

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