oh the injustice

I just read that Katie Holmes ran in the NYC marathon this past weekend. It has been one of my life goals for many years now to be a marathoner... specifically, i want to run in the Boston....And every time I read about someone just going out there and finishing on, i get super jealous.. but this post isn't about my jealousy.. not really anyway... its really about the fact that it took her 5.5 hours to finish! what the fuck? A paraplegic infant could finish in 5.5 hours. That's 12.35 miles... So I wonder if she trained at all, or she just said a couple of weeks ago "i'm famous... i could run this thing...." and she went ahead and did it... and if that's the case, then I say, Oh the injustice... Because, even while a paraplegic infant could finish faster than katie holmes, I could not... stupid knees... I've had knee problems now for i think about 5 years.. maybe 6. I've lost track... and I've had it...I wonder if I can get cut open? fix my goddamn knee! fix it fix it fix it fix it! gah... further proof that either (a) god hates me or (b) god is malicious and gets off on causing pain and despair. Because i'm filled with both....