static

Static - Beck

I spend a lot of time just thinking about stuff. As I've said before, I often wish that I could make my mind shut up; It keeps me up at night and makes getting up in the morning difficult. I spend a particularly large amount of time thinking about my friends and acquaintances, trying to figure them out, trying to piece them together from the bits and pieces that I've learned about them thru the days and years I've known them. Or, of course, trying to make sense of myself. Is it weird that I dont think I fully understand myself? my instinct tells me that its not weird; that it's normal.

Yesterday I accidentally went off about religion and philosophy while talking to Nooree. I hope she wasn't too bored, but I so rarely get to talk about why humans are how they are, and what motivates us on a greater level. So I started talking and thinking and it was all downhill from there. It makes me definitely want to start on my phenomenology. I need to bust out my Hegel and start working on it.

I'm tired. I like 'heavy' thoughts and 'heavy' talk. I wish other people did. But I forget that other people don't really care about the things I care about. I need to remind myself of that.

Perfect Day - Lou Reed